Communication Breakdown

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Was I in London in 1970? Nah, nupe didn’t arrive there until 1972. Oh well never mind. So that was exciting wasn’t it, yes it was even if you disagree. I’m not in the habit of changing my mind just because other people disagree.

Do you know that people say that XXY guys are poor communicators? I wonder why they say those things in groups designed to encourage people to participate? Then some XXY guys actually get pissed off because there’s not enough chatter! I don’t, I just carry on chatting, why not? Oh they get pissed off because I’m chatting, oh how sad, they can always take their own hint and start chatting, aka communicating!

Some XXY guy popped by one of my channels the other day, telling me all about how testosterone made him crazy, ohh that’s weird, not reported in literature that one! Then he went on to say how he was taking mood stabilisers. I actually prefer a stable mood and a sex life so I have testosterone, I replied. And strangely female to male transsexuals don’t report what some XXY guys report about testosterone, so maybe the XXY guys response is due to too little testosterone, not too much, or any?

Do you know that even in boring old XY guys some of their testosterone is converted into oestrogen (estrogen)? I think that’s how they maintain a stable mood, and when we look at FtM Transguys they have oestrogen production from their ovaries, so they don’t need as much testosterone as regular XY guys, or XXY guys, as they don’t need to convert any of it to estrogen.

And you have to remember it’s the hormones of the female egg producing cycle that causes their occasional mood instability, not their staple oestrogen. So the XXY guys who make themselves unstable in their mood by refusing testosterone NEED something else to be happy, or stable! They have to have other mind altering drugs that replace their missing oestrogen that they’re not converting from their testosterone.

XXY guys certainly do like to give oestrogen a bad name. In their testosterone starved brain they imagine they’re more like females because they have unstable mood. That’s really sexist by the way, but what do they care! So they’re not more like females, they’re more like XY males with hypogonadism! People really ought to go and look into regular XY males who develop hypogonadism and see just where they’re at in regard to mood, some are going to be seriously surprised.

So I think it’s insufficient oestrogen that causes XXY males to develop unstable mood. Of course I do have a labile mood, do you know what ‘labile’ means? Without you having to go look it up it, briefly it means ‘changes rapidly’ ‘unpredictable’ ‘spontaneous’ along those lines. This is the way I’ve been all my life, so I take the attitude of ‘better the devil I know.’ It seems no amount of oestrogen I have, or testosterone, makes any difference to that type of mood. I think I’ll just be used to it, since I’ve had a long time to get used to it.

I don’t want to change my mood, I don’t want to have to drug myself up to change it. I take enough drugs as it is without adding more. So I’ll change the things I can, (that need changing), accept the things I cannot (or won’t) change, and have the good sense to know the difference. How about you?

Is No Body Shameful?

Of course there are ‘shameful’ bodies!

Anybody who insists their chromosomes dictate their sex is deluded. Do you know people with XY sex chromosomes can have female everything external, and do you know that people with XX sex chromosomes can have male everything external?

Actually the XX male persons are said to have Klinefelter’s syndrome as they have seminiferous tubule dysgenesis, and to have that disease they must have testes of course! So they’re obviously male, always were.

So where am I going…..? I get really pissed off with some of these intersex types, like most of them are so fucking lucky, they got diagnosed at birth! Then they bitch and moan about the medical care they received as if it were a bad thing!

Do you know there’s a theory out there in ‘research land’ (that’s a mythical world where people in white coats a hang out and read reams of paper literature) that says that XXY males suffer greatly from insufficient testosterone during puberty, that they’d be better off if they had no puberty at all, like males with Kallmann syndrome, effectively!

True, males with Kallmann syndrome don’t suffer they types of difficulty XXY males suffer, and it is theorised this is because males with Kallmann syndrome their testes fail to produce testosterone, thus saving their brain from psychiatric illness. XXY males on the other hand experience puberty normally, then their testosterone level markedly drops off, sometime after the onset of puberty. Nobody knows exactly when and nobody seems interested in finding out exactly when! They’re males after all, who gives a shit about males sexual & mental health?

Of course there are always exceptions to the rule.

Remember also, psychiatric illness has NOTHING to do with learning ability.

But these intersex types, their only problems are man made! Yeah they discover they’d been lied to all their lives, (that’s something for transsexual people to remember, when you lie about a matter your entire life the people you lie to get hurt!) And intersex types, they feel betrayed, depressed, anxious, angry, that can lead to psychological problems. But they’re so lucky that they had doctors who gave a shit about them, who made sure they had a NORMAL puberty, the very thing all XXY guys don’t have!

Transsexual people usually have a NORMAL puberty too! Be it the wrong sex but hey, normal all the same.

Now you’ve got to read the fine print in “The Interface Project” on YouTube, these intersex types have an introduction video, and what the people say is compelling, but the text in the video is off putting.

I know for a fact they all believe XXY guys are intersex, not that it’s any of their business of course! They wholeheartedly believe all XXY guys have Klinefelter’s syndrome, these intersex types are really good at spouting medical dogma, when it doesn’t apply to them! They want to force XXY boys to develop psychiatric disorders, because they’re receiving information from crackpots who lie about even how they a were diagnosed, about their medical care, the structure of their internal organs, anything to fit into the intersex group they will lie about.

So why do some of the XXY guys want to fit into a group they don’t belong in? Could it be that they’re all homosexual and the support groups of the 1990’s didn’t cater for them, and they had nowhere else to go? Of course, I think it’s pretty well proven sex chromosome numbers do not dictate sexuality, but these homosexual XXY guys really want it to be true for them! If XXY causes homosexuality then all XXY males MUST be homosexual, and we know for a fact that’s not true!

Should an XY female have her internal, non sperm making, testes removed, and if they are removed is that sterilisation? I do know of AIS, 46XY females who were not diagnosed until adulthood, and none have ever elected to keep their non sperm producing, testosterone producing gonads. They’re not being sterilised, they’re being assisted. So I don’t think AIS females diagnosed at birth, or in childhood are being sterilised either, they’re being assisted. They’re given what most XXY guys don’t have a NORMAL life! Now if Eden Atwood wants to have the effects of her testes back, all she need do is have testosterone supplementation, if she wants?

So getting back to XXY boys, should they be forced to have testosterone therapy? I don’t think they are forced to. It’s only the crackpot XXY guys who pretend they’re intersex who claim they are! Oh no I do know of 1 XXY man who was forced to have testosterone therapy when he was a teen by his parents, and as soon as he hit 18 he stopped the therapy, at grave risk to his health! That is exactly what doctors want to avoid, which is exactly why they INSIST it’s the XXY boy HIMSELF who decides if he wants hormone therapy. Of course stupid parents will do stupid things regardless of the best advice!

Of XXY boys in puberty this is what I have NEVER found, they don’t want erections, they don’t want sex, they don’t want to masturbate, they don’t want to ejaculate. When they realise they need testosterone to do all those things, they agree to hormone therapy. It’s only these pretend intersex crackpot XXY adults who want to claim their hormone therapy was a disaster. One famous XXY idiot maintains he was better off being sexually incapable, and wished he’d never started testosterone therapy, but only did so because he was not informed of all the consequences of that therapy. So who as an adult needs to be informed as to the effects of testosterone when as an adult he sought out therapy? Oh he also claims he might die if he stops the therapy he was ‘forced’ to take, which is utter nonsense!

Who the hell’s he trying to kid here? This sort of crap might be really well received by the intersex types, the true intersexers I mean, but it just doesn’t wash with normal bodied people. Normally testosterone is produced by the testes in males at about 50-70mgs per day, when the men are resting. Many men seem to think they wake after resting with an erection as they need to piss, but it’s pure co-incidence. Just ask yourself men, during the day, and you’re awake when you need to pee do you have an erection? Well I’m a man and I don’t, but I do have morning erections, because the testosterone I have is not being used for all the other things it’s needed for and goes straight to my penis, just the same as any other man, when he’s resting.

So what happens if they don’t produce that 50-70mgs per day? Do you really think they still wake up erect? Do they have sexually explicit dreams? Do they think about sex at all? So if an XXY man doesn’t want these terribly manly things what does he have to do? Cut his balls off! Not on your life he doesn’t, all he has to do is stop having the testosterone therapy. Making that personal choice might be quite difficult for some XXY men, when it all goes wrong who can they blame but themselves?

Now if these intersex types want to influence the medical profession to not treat them with hormones, of course they can feel free, they’re adults after all and it’s their health that’s at stake, nobody can be hurt but them. But for them to advocate that NOBODY with a DSD should be treated with hormones because of their not necessarily true accounts, is just plain nonsense. How can they possibly expect to have any influence in the health care of persons not related to them, not even in their circle of friends, based on their dubious accounts?

XXY boys deserve to be diagnosed early, before the onset of puberty, and ought to have the right to go through puberty just like any other males on the planet, and not be forced to develop possible psychiatric illness just because these intersex types have not got a clue what they’re talking about. If they want my continued support they’re going to have to tone down the text in their video. They’re going to have to accept that XXY boys forced to develop Klinefelter’s syndrome will not have a good opinion of their own most ugly body, as it’s counter intuitive for healthy males to look like that! Even their crackpot XXY colleagues don’t have that fat ugly body, BECAUSE they have testosterone therapy!

In my opinion.

Peer Pressure

So what do I say what Klinefelter’s syndrome is, read to the left, “Klinefelter’s syndrome is the symptoms of disease.”

Go that, understand? It’s not intersex, it’s SYMPTOMS of DISEASE.

What do I say XXY is? That might be harder to define, or XXY is XY with a Barr body. That covers everything.

Do you think I might argue with online discussion groups and supposedly information sites about the information they frequently have on both? You’d be correct if you do!

My latest argument ended in a semi-win. Effectively the site agreed they were misrepresenting what they have online about XXY and KS, but they won’t change it as, “all the other sites say the same.” So that’s the effect of Peer Pressure a feature of life I am immune to.

My peers, well who are they? Other ignorant XXY guys? Men who think they’re intersex? Parents of boys before puberty who think their son has Klinefelter’s syndrome? I reject all of you people as my peers. You’re not thinking reasonably, sensibly, logically, correctly. You’re up the proverbial creek without a paddle.

As I keep saying it’s not my idea to separate XXY and KS. For some it’s their idea to separate XXY from AD/HD. I agree, not all XXY’s have AD/HD, and almost no XXY’s look like the people Dr Klinefelter first described. Like I say to parents, regularly, “What’s the point in discovering these boys early if you, or their doctors, are going to insist they develop features of the syndrome that are avoidable?” Is AD/HD avoidable, I don’t think so. Being excessively tall is! Being obese is! Having no musculature is! Having no energy is!

When I was at the site I left messages of course, for the XXY guys who’d asked and got nothing back from anybody. So really I am the only enlightened educator out there on the internet telling the truth, a truth that few seem to be willing to accept. The child XXY sons are not diseased, and they may never be, provided they get proper health care.

A couple of times it was said I was known before I got there, I do make an impression.

The administrators of the site I was at admitting they won’t change because of ‘peer pressure,’ is as good as them admitting they are wrong.

Every little bit helps!

That’s all for now.

Graeme.
XXY – for life.

Testosterone Day

Today is Testosterone day, no I tell a lie, last Sunday was Testosterone day, but it’s so damn cold at this time of year being naked, my preferred state of dress for my testosterone injection, is off putting. I lose my nerve in cold weather.

I hate wearing clothes for it, I got used to not wearing clothes when the Nurses took over from the Doctors to give me my injection. It is much more comfortable. Wherever my clothes are touching me that’s where my muscles flinch, and flinching is a definite ‘no no’ when receiving a testosterone injection.

I have options though, I can pay a Nurse to give me it. It’s always warm at my doctors surgery, but I have to wait until Monday, or Tuesday, and I really need it now, and I have it now. Oh the stress of it all, I wish I lived on the Equator!

I probably have enough testosterone, I can put it off another day, that’s how I can convince myself I’m doing the right thing when I know I’m not. I’m just making myself sick with worry. Any old excuse will do in cold weather.

I can have a shower, yeah definitely, that’ll warm me up and my injection too, I can’t inject cold testosterone, that’s self inflicted torture.

I really need to bolster myself up, ‘bite the bullet’ as they say, and just do it.

I need a mug of coffee.

See how I use lots of ‘I’ statements, I just did it again! This is how I am with the disease I’m treated for and I know so much about it, I’m a walking encyclopedia on XXY and associated medical & psychiatric conditions. Ask me anything about XXY and if I don’t know I’ll bloody well find out, nothing will be hidden from me, never again, making up reasons to not have the treatment of the disease I’m supposed to be treated for!

People now want me to go out for the afternoon. They want me to buy them burgers. I can’t be bothered doing anything, I think I’ll just go to bed.

testosterone

I did it. I feel much better, not that the testosterone has had any time to have any effect, just that I did something I’ve been putting off for over a week, knowing that has a depressing effect. Imagine how bad I’d get if I put it off for even longer? I imagine that, and it wasn’t so painful after my shower to warm up.

Now where are those people who want burgers?

Good on ya New Zealand/Aotearoa

Whoever you are, you’re reading my blog, all 7 of you, well done! Of course you have a ways to catch up, there are over 50 Americans of the USA variety who read my blog.

I read other people’s blogs supposedly about their medical condition, and it’s cram packed full of crap about all sorts of things EXCEPT their medical condition! What’s the story there? Misleading advertising? There’s nothing in it? They don’t know anything really?

Why is it that there are so many outrageous blogs by other XXY guys, why can’t they be normal like me?

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I should have been diagnosed at my first ever full time job at General Motors, Trentham, Upper Hutt. Unfortunately the doctor was away that day, only his/her Nurse was there, and all she could do was ask questions, none of which was ‘How big are your testicles?

When I got down to the ‘shop floor’ that’s what they called it, where the automated lines were, where the cars were assembled, the people I’d been hired with were all talking about their medical. Two of them mentioned how they’d had their balls squeezed. That was odd I thought, that didn’t happen to me. I thought they were making it up. Mainly because that had never happened to me, anywhere, ever!

Not all the guys were talking that way either, nor any of the girls! I suppose it could have been that she only squeezed the balls of the guys she liked, or hated? It’s hard to say really, all I do know is that Nurses aren’t normally allowed to squeeze a guys balls. Oh, unless they’re male Nurses!

I’ve met 2 male Nurses in my professional life. Well I guess it’s ‘professional’ since before I was diagnosed I never met anyone who was male and said they were a Nurse. That’s weird logic, never mind, maybe I can use the words ‘diagnosed life?’ In my diagnosed life, blah blah blah….

So why is it that other XXY guys don’t report what I report? Why is there so much fucking crap out there in blog land about them supposedly being intersexed, or is that intersext? Could it be that these wallies were all adults when they were diagnosed, and got so used to their sexless lives that they think all XXY guys are the same?

Oh there is that other one of course, but he’s so far gone psychiatricly speaking nothing he says can be relied upon as even what he actually thinks, or knows, as what he thinks he knows changes so rapidly from one extreme to another, so I’ll just ignore him from now on.

Intersex is all about weirdly formed genitals, 180px-Ambiguous_genitalia not diseased bodies! Old&young47xxy How the hell any XXY guy can claim he’s intersex is a mystery to me. I think they need to get a grip of themselves and realise how gorgeous looking they really are. Like one XXY guy I know on Facebook who’s got a body almost worth worshiping! I tell you he has the torso of a Bronzed Greek Statue – yet complains women won’t like him! Who the hell cares what women like, it’s what he or I like that’s of greater importance.

XXY guys just seem to be hell bent oh hating themselves, which ought to be considered strange since the world spends so much of it’s time hating everything and everybody that’s different. Oh and if I think a guy has a good looking body I’ll say so and the reader can invent any manner of different meanings to that like as they want, and I don’t give a shit! You play societal games, and I’ll enjoy what I see without prejudice.

Oh look I got side tracked, fancy that, too busy thinking about Mr XXY Universe!

Yeah so, male Nurses, I think they’ve shown the most interest in my tiny testicles, when I had them, than any others in all the medical professions I’ve been involved with. I can imagine the thoughts going through their heads “Fuck those are small” or “I’m so glad I don’t have those” and “I’ve just got to feel them, are they really that hard?”

Normally I don’t have anything to do with male Nurses. They get jobs in hospitals on the basis of their sex, that they are male and can therefore do certain tasks better then female Nurses, like shaving genitals. Nah that can’t be right, female Nurses have shaved me too! No, that was the reason given by the Staff Nurse, that she’s getting a male Nurse to shave me, to ‘lessen embarrassment.’ What’s more embarrassing; having an erection in front of a man, or in front of a woman you don’t know, and have never seen before?

Dah…… it’s the same!

Can you imagine, you’re laying in a hospital bed naked and a person comes in with a bowl of hot water and a razor, you have an instant erection. Is the Nurse thinking “he wants to have sex with me?” If it’s true, and the Nurse is male, is that less embarrassing?

Males, period, have erections from date of birth to date of death and at all points between. Just because a male has an erection doesn’t mean he wants to have sex. Of course just because he didn’t think of it at that time of his erection, is no reason to assume he won’t think of it whilst there’s someone else present. In fact there are very good reasons why he will think of it whilst someone else is present, or not, depending on how long the erection lasts!

Other XXY guys don’t report this kind of stuff. No, they’re strange, they report how testosterone doesn’t work, makes them feel funny, makes them depressed. They talk about how so much better their lives were before they started testosterone. I think, ‘why do you moan so much?’ ‘Who makes you take testosterone, you’re all big boys now, you can refuse anything you don’t want.’ They still complain though, as if there’s nothing else in their lives except how badly they’re constantly being treated, there is nothing good in anything.

Taking testosterone for me at 17 was like returning to when I was 10. The only difference being that at 17 I knew why I was going stiff at any odd time of day or night. I didn’t feel depressed by that at all. I wasn’t depressed at 10 either, just intrigued. (well if I was it wasn’t for that reason, that was a highlight) I had restarted puberty, it was exciting, it was great, it was the best. I can’t imagine why any male doesn’t like puberty, or returning to puberty if it had stalled. All those weird XXY guys who grizzle and moan about testosterone MUST’VE forgotten about their initial puberty, and been so used to being without sexual desire, for so long, they’d also forgotten the JOY OF SEX!

Somehow in their minds they’ve twisted things around to be joyful without sex, as low testosterone for many years will result in no sexual desire. That’s not normal though, that is strange. Mammals are made to have sex, that’s how they reproduce of course, and being infertile does not stop that desire provided their sex hormone is adequate. Sexual feelings and thoughts they experience are not ‘strange’ or ‘alien’ they are normal. So maybe they’re making up more stories to counter a hidden truth, that can only be resolved if they don’t have sufficient sex hormone, sexual desires that cannot be controlled, that are illegal? Then they can pretend they’re ‘intersex’ and are without sexual desire!

That is the only scenario that makes sense to me.